Monday, 23 December 2013

2013 the stye

I have a stye, as in one of those annoying little fuckers on your eyelid. I've never had one before but they're really annoying! Kind of painful, itchy, not that big of a deal but still irritating enough to make you a cranky cow.

And I realised this is a perfect way to end 2013, because that was 2013 has been like for me, a stye. Personally, it's been a good year for me, two healthy kids, a decent enough marriage, good job, friends, family... But for people around me it seems to have been a really shit one, hence why this year is a stye, not that big of a deal, but not that good either.

I can think of at least 10 people I know that have lost close family members, my sister's house burned down, my dad was diagnosed with a nerve condition, my mum had both her eyes operated on, Grandma was in and out of hospital, dog fucker remained a right fucker, little brother almost died... All just crappy things that I felt pretty much helpless as I watched on.

The worst thing to happen this year was definitely earlier this month. I'm not sure if I've mentioned him on here before but about 3 years ago I had a 2 year old boy named Hayate start at the school, he'd been coming to lessons for about 2 years when he suddenly stopped for a month because they discovered cancer in his eye and he had to have his eye taken out. He came back to lessons with a patch but a few months later had to stop because he needed chemo. I went to visit him in the hospital in summer and it was heartbreaking then to see him all hooked up to tubes and with no hair, but I thought he'd pull through, he was talking, laughing, I was quizzing him on the ABC... Then I got a mail from his mum saying he'd died. Just gone, the same age as Ash, a happy, smiley, genki little boy, just gone. I went to the funeral and I just couldn't stop crying for days. Which made me feel guilty, I have no fucking right to be so upset when his mum is going through hell, but I just couldn't stop the emotion spilling out of me, I'd be jogging and think of him or his mum and dad and just have tears flowing.

So yeah, rather depressing stuff! I'm hoping 2014 won't be so shitty for everyone around me, and that this bastard stye pisses off just in time for me to drink a lot of alcohol and lounge around for new year! How was your 2013, stye-ish...?

8 comments:

  1. I got the flu today and have a stye on my back but it ain't shit compared to some other folks problems.....not even close.

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  2. Poor little Hayate, these things never seem fair. Puts the little moans and groans I'm so good at focusing on into perspective. Here's hoping 2014 is a better year for those around you.

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  3. My 2013 was like having a giant festering weeping sore on my ass. Worst year of my life. Enough said. Sigh.

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  4. Hi! I really enjoy your blog.
    Touching a stye with something gold is an effective cure...........
    I know, I know, I was sceptical myself initially BUT it works. I used my
    gold wedding ring, just kept touching the stye with the (wiped) ring and within a few days it had gone.
    Hope this helps!

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  5. I agree with the gold cure for a stye. It really works.

    That poor family losing their little boy so young. It really does put things into perspective. I have so much to be thankful for.

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  6. I was going to suggest the gold wedding ring too. I had a stye recently and - since we are a house of spinsters - my sister said she'd get Nan's wedding ring for me to use. But then she says she gave me her jewelry box to hide when we moved to Japan last year and I can't ever remember having it so it turned into something much worse than a stye!

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  7. Hmmm. The eye cancer story. When was Fukushima? 2 years ago. I just learned that my friend's grandson, who was born 3 months after the tsunami, also had his eye removed after developing a rare form of eye cancer. Worrying times. 222

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