Ryota is such a fucking shitty husband sometimes. I might even go as far as saying he's a shitty person, he is notorious for being difficult to get along with in his family and among his friends. And the amount of bitching I do about him, I'm sure you probably think I'm soft in the head for putting up with it and staying. And you know to be honest, sometimes I wonder how much I can take until I kill him off for the insurance money or just flee the country!
But after my last post, I was feeling REALLY shitty, and it wasn't for an hour or so, it was a constant feeling of wanting to cry. It's rare for me to feel like this for extended periods of time so I started googling depression during pregnancy, and sure enough, it's pretty common, just due to hormones. There was a special mention that if you have something that would be stressing you out normally, it is likely to be 10 times worse when you're pregnant, just because the prospect of stress on top of the whole responsibility of bringing a new life into the world can be way too much for a woman with stupid amounts of hormones running through her. So the school is my stress trigger it would seem. And I don't want it to be, because I love it and am so proud of it. It is still a huge weight on my mind but I'm trying techniques to not let it get to me so much that I'm battling depression because of it.
So that night when I got home, I was completely honest with Ryota, I said I wasn't coping, I was sorry because I was going to be quite difficult for the immediate future at least, and that I needed to cry and not be quizzed on why I was crying. He took it all in, fiddled with his whiskers as he does and then started singing some ridiculous song about his "mendokusai wife" in a high-pitched voice. He let me be though, and started googling pregnancy depression in Japanese. That night when we went to bed I was still so down and after Ash had gone to sleep and I was having a bit of a futon sob, he came out with:"I know what the problem is, you're horny!!!" Only to pull the covers off to reveal that he'd totally stripped off! This made me giggle a bit too, but I explained that sadly a shag wasn't going to solve everything. And it didn't. Didn't make matters worse mind you... I did actually feel a bit better after some good old fashioned lovin'!
The next day he woke up early and I came down to find him planning... our wedding.
I know, what the fuck? He told me he'd made a plan to have our wedding along with my 30th birthday at my favourite restaurant in my hometown and was looking up prices... Now this is totally another 'Ryota pipe dream' that I assure you will never happen, but it was his way of thinking of how to cheer me up and by giving me something to look forward to. (I'm sure it was a tip from the internet, but still!)
He really is an arse a lot of the time, but I guess that's the thing about figuring out the people we're close to, not everyone does it in the conventional way. And I'm kind of glad he's not conventional, keeps life interesting at least!
I so want to hear that song... can you get him to sing it again and post it?ReplyDelete
Aw, he can manage not to be an arse. Will he perform the song at the wedding? I'm sure it'd be a hit with the rellies. I really hope things get easier, and the all night shagathons do the trick.ReplyDelete
Lol you gotta love guy logic,ReplyDelete
"You have depression/cancer/TB/diabetes? I know what you need, sex!"
And you need to get him to record and release "mendokusai tsuma/whatever word he used for wife", you never know, it might be a hit with Japanese married men and he could become a star!
Awww. He stays, too. It sounds like you have a good thing goin' on after all.ReplyDelete
Hehe, I guess guys do think sex fixes everything. But it's very sweet that he's trying to cheer you up in his own way.ReplyDelete
"I know what the problem is, you're horny!!!"ReplyDelete
I thought this was really funny and great.
LOL - tis the fix it solution. Shag and well, at least I'll feel better about you being upset - I'm sure thats what they're thinking, if anything. Having something to look forward too is so important. Super impressed he's even thinking about it and it would so be doable so I hope he pulls through. That would be incentive to get back to where you were before you got pregnant too. Bet you'll be looking pretty hot and gorgeous on your wedding day.ReplyDelete
In a creepy stalker way I love your rs-posts <3ReplyDelete
I cry on a daily basis because my bf is an irresponsible, lazy bump and insensitive. But whenever I am close to fuck off for good, he does sth. cute, nice or incredible caring. Obviously Japanese men now how to keep us with minimum efforts :D
Sex is the glue the binds the relationship. It's a physical expression of love. All jokes aside it is very necessary. Show me a marriage where the "thrill" is gone and I'll show you a pair of roommates with rings. IMOReplyDelete