Tuesday 4 June 2013


*Ryota and I had an awful weekend. He told me I could go to my dance lesson that I used to go to, but then said "Hmmm I don't think you can go EVERY week though..." So I didn't go because there was no point going for one lesson when you have to pay by the month. I didn't even fight, I was just so disappointed and sad. I think he sensed it and felt guilty. It was horrible, I felt so... alone... out of control...?

*He's been super nice to me ever since, guilt has its benefits but I still would rather just be able to go to my fucking dance class.

*I have a chest cold, as in breathing is a difficulty and I sound like a tranny!

*Little bro got back to Japan only to get a blood clot on the plane and almost died again, he's now in the local hospital so finally things are looking better-ish.

*Work is busy, kicking my arse but busy is good and I'm finally finding a balance between work and house shit, getting better with time management.

*I've lost 7 kilos! Wooohoooo, minimal drugs too, just protein shakes instead of lunch and a diet supplement at night. I will be back to my thinner self by my 30th.

*Sometimes I like fighting with Ryota and being busy because I feel too bad to eat, hence the 7kgs...

*Excuse me while I go and cough up a lung or two...


  1. My God! At least little bro is back in Japan, so has at least health insurance and his family around. Let's hope for the best.

    Yay for the weight loss. :-D I demand pictures!

    1. Thanks, I'm hoping for the best for him too. :(

      Ok, will get going on pictures!!!

  2. He really can't get a break hey. He now has to have a filter in his neck forever because of the blood clot. :(

    I don't think it's anything to do with cheating, it's just that he doesn't want to look after the house/kids for 2 hours the big pussy!

  3. I'm glad younger brother is back in Japan, but poor guy, hope this is the last of it.
    Ryota clearly needs a smack. He helped make the 2 kids (I'm assuming....) so he should help take care of them. He would probably palm them off on grandma anyway... Lazy bugger.
    7kgs! Wow! I'm sitting here eating ice cream, so I can't say I'm trying, but I'm still jealous! And yes, pictures please!